disturbing the universe

You can come to school on Monday and be OK because you'll know that I will protect you from Brandon and biology class and anything/body else giving you a hard time.

You're right, we never get to talk and it's weird. It feels like I'm seeing you less and less at school, probably due to me always being late in the mornings. [to answer your question: December 16th! so um, sometime in december The Shindig will happen. Gosh that looks like the title of a horror film.]

Don't worry about me!!! I added a third exclamation point for emphasis! I feel bad making you worry when you have so much more to be losing sleep over, though I hope you're not literally losing sleep. I am A-OK, for real. it's ... really really late so I should be getting offline but I will ramble about it later here on LJ so you will not have to stress over such nonsense. c: It's all good, I promise. Knowing that someone is concerned is enough for me. so thank you!

ok I know I sound really silly. I just need to go to sleep haha. I'll post again later. You probably won't see this for a day or two but I want you to be happy and enjoy your sugar cookies, and for your mom to get better (she is a sweetheart). ok that is all ♥

TIM FOR THE PREVIOUS POST AND IVO FOR THIS ONE.

[HEY, LYNDSEY.]

Why hello!!


[I STILL READ YOUR LJ. EVEN THOUGH I DELETED MINE. [x ]

I am pleased by this c: And why did you delete yours anyway?


[Also, I got a text from you, but couldn’t read it, as I had no minutes left on my phone.]

Ah! It said "Hello! this is Lyndsey! I hope you have a lovely Thanksgiving because I am thankful for YOU! just saying. You can carry about your daily business now." Give or take a few punctuation marks.


[However, my new phone should be arriving within a few days, and I’ll have unlimited text, so I’ll give you that number soon.]

Peachy keen!

[And may I ask how you are? You’re so busy worrying about everyone around you that you don’t seem to account for yourself. And I mean that in the most affectionate way.]

You probably don't know how genuinely happy I was to read those last three sentences, and I guess I cannot accurately put my feelings at that moment into words, but I hope this run-on sentence I am ambling through does the trick. ANYWAY!!
I've been ok c: A little confused about some things, recently, to be honest. Just kind of lost. Well, more than kind of. I'm sure you know the feeling.

Thank you thank you thank you for asking haha ♥ Would you be at all interested in attending a shindig at my house in coming weeks? I want to have some kind of happylovefest with close friends for my birthday. It's not final though. Actually I don't even know when I'll have it. But I'm just throwing the idea out there. Like fresh linens to the wind, at home on the prairie. Whoooosshh.

but somehow I still feel slightly attached to it.

 HE WENT INTO THE GARAGE.

 NOOOO TYLER DON'T GO INTO THE GARAGE

 I started watching it on LOGO after school today (I do not think I should be allowed to watch LOGO) and now I'm finishing it online.

STACEY DO NOT FOLLOW THEM INTO THE FOREST, that is all I am saying ):

 Is outrageously attractive.

(I should be using that icon Emma made me for this post.)

(also EMMA WHY DO I MENTION YOU IN LIKE EVERY LIVEJOURNAL POST I MAKE)

 I didn't think I would be so deeply bothered by this!  D8

My mom and I got ambushed by a Dead Sea Spa guy at the mall today.  This is usually amusing because they're so eager to sell the product and are really energetic and stuff, except you have to always try to walk by them reallyreallyfast so they don't catch you in time.  But we were not speedy enough, in this instance.

This was a very handsome young Israeli guy named Lio who I enjoyed staring at.  He first got our attention my complimenting my nails and asking to see what colors I had on (they are rainbow).  then he dragged me over and started showing us this nail strengthener or whatever.  and my mom and I were all "oh haha that's quite nice but we have to go now."  but then he was all NO WAIT I HAVE SOMETHING ELSE blah blah and he WOULDN'T STOP and I literally believe that my mom said "no we have to leave" nine or ten times, no exaggeration.  he even cut the price three times and we still refused and tried to leave.  so he finally just stepped back and shrugged and started guilt-tripping us.  I'm serious.  not verbally, but he pretended to look hurt and disappointed (not in the joking way, either).  so we were like "oh jeez" and told him sorry, we just really had to go.  Then he tried to give us the military discount.  we are not a military family.  I guess he SEEMED really really desperate, but I'm sure he's sold plenty of this stuff already with this kind of wacked-out sale strategy he was using :| 

see, it would have been one thing if he'd let us go the first time we said no, and I wouldn't mind.  I wouldn't even mind that much about the whole situation (except that it was slightly bothersome) if he hadn't started the whole sad puppy thing.  I know it sounds silly for me to get so worked up about this, but it was just really insensitive.  I know you're not supposed to take that kind of thing personally because it's just some random salesguy you're never going to meet again in your life, but I'm a type of person who can't help that.  if a person starts acting like I hurt their feelings, whether they mean it or not, I get ultra distressed.  so I didn't think that was quite fair of him to do that.  it feels like one's being taken advantage of.  I dislike it.

ANYWAY BESIDES THAT I had a great day.  Just had to get that off my chest, though, haha.

♥

"PEOPLE REALLY SUCK" moods even though I know that they really don't suck too bad (especially today of all days).  and I watched Powerpuff Girls after getting home from school so I should be absolutely chipper.

Side note:  It feels like a Friday, despite being three days before.

boring entry is boring

I am growing increasingly worried about my acting skills, as of late.  The only roles I have ever had that even remotely challenged me were Mrs. Hawkins in Treasure Island and one scene as Dory in The Carousel.  And both of those were three years ago.  I'd do them over again in a heartbeat, of course.  But since then, I've only had comedic roles, boring ones, or serious ones that I couldn't take seriously.  I've been told that I'm better in humorous scenes, but I love serious acting more (whenever I feel confident doing it).

I'm worried now that since it's been so long, I won't be able to really dedicate myself to an extensive role, if I should ever miraculously get one in the near future.  Like, I feel myself growing out of my whole acting thing I've had going on.  I distinctly recall being onstage for Seussical at the end of "Here on Who" during a bus-in show, hearing those really dumb high-school kids in the audience laugh at us, and thinking "wow I guess we do look really stupid."  It wasn't a good feeling.

But still, knowing what it's like to be a PROPER actor (I'm not a good one but I know what it takes to make a good one), I still have the utmost respect for professionals even whenever I have doubts about doing it myself.  Acting is a lot, a LOT more than memorizing lines and reciting them with expression.  It's re-inventing a whole new life for yourself and a bunch of other poetic things that would take an hour to explain.  So I hope that I'll be able to, um, rekindle that flame of mine or something.  can you tell I'm bored of writing this.  I have made my point now let's move on

I really really want to play Ros or Guil.  or Hamlet.  or Mark from RENT.  I shake my fist at my double X chromosomes!!